Magic Doorways ~ Inspirations - DESIRE

DESIRE - how my heart is aching. DESIRE could be characterized as the original sin that we all carry within our genes. We desire more money, a better car, a bigger house, a more satisfying career, recognition, love, good relationships, a slimmer or more youthful body... The list goes on and on. Our whole life is based on fulfilling one desire or another.

Oh how my heart is aching and beating
And all of my senses are reaching out
To devour and merge with this object that I so desire
I must have it I for my life depends upon it I know that it will fill all of my needs
And make me forever at peace
You're telling me that I'm deluded?
And that desire is a bottomless pit of empty promises?
No! Please just let me have this one thing
Then 1'lI listen to you, I promise
I really need this object of my desire
As it will be the fulfillment of all of my hopes and dreams
You want me to surrender to God - the creator of all objects?
Yes, I'll do that later, if you just help me with this one last thing
If I can't have it I know I will die
And if you refuse to help me, then please close that door when you leave.
 
DESIRE
Life contains but two tragedies, one is not to get your heart's desire the other is to get it.

                                                                                                                                      Oscar Wilde

There was a time when I longed for a home in a quiet neighbourhood, close to everything. I would look in the newspapers and on the internet at listings of houses for sale, none of which I could afford. I would walk the streets, looking into people's back yards, trying to imagine what it would be like to sit on a quiet back deck with just my own thoughts instead of the clamour of the crowded apartment building where I lived. This desire became so strong that I could think of nothing else but finding a home to rest in. But it was financially impossible. I was grief-stricken that I would have to live the rest of my life without peace and quiet. Then I became angry that I had focused so much of my earlier life on spirituality, that every penny had been spent on searching for deeper meaning and not on accumulating wealth. The anger became sadness as I reflected on how little I had to show for my life materially. One day, as I was walking by multimillion-dollar properties in one of the wealthiest areas of town, the pain of being unable to purchase a home became very acute. I couldn't bear it a moment longer and I sat down on a bench and cried in anguish. "I will die if I can't have a home to rest in," I thought, and I truly believed it. But then, a tiny little flash of light shot through my thoughts and I realized, "I am putting all of my energy into desiring and leaving nothing for my life and my soul!" This awareness shook me out of my grieving. I woke up to how ephemeral life is; a peaceful home will not protect me from death. I placed myself in the home of my dreams, and imagined living my life from there. Fundamentally, there would not be much difference from my current life. I would still need to get up, exercise, meditate, cook, clean, eat, work, sleep, garden, etc. I realized that, ultimately, the amount of time that I could actually enjoy the house would be minimal.

I began to look at the nature of desire itself, to try and understand the incredible power that it had over me. The only way out of my dilemma was to capture desire itself before it grabbed onto those thoughts that said, "House, home, rest, peace." To avoid creating a painful reality for myself, I needed to take the focus off of desiring objects; I needed to look at desire as a form of God arising from consciousness. I would then be able to witness my desire from a place of awareness rather than chasing after it and being disappointed. Without the object of house/home, the desire I felt turned into, "I Am." "I am one with God, I already have everything I need," reverberated inside of me. It's at times like these that my original spiritual awakening experience returns to remind me of who I really am.

The realization, "I am God" arose from desire without attachment to an object, which again showed me that nothing exists that is not God. In the Vijnana Bhairava, a scripture of Kashmir Shaivism, Dharana #75 speaks about this experience:
"When a desire or knowledge (or activity) appears, the aspirant should, with mind with drawn from all objects (of desire, knowledge, etc.), fix his mind on it (desire, knowledge, etc.) as the very Self. Then he will have the realization of the essential Reality." (1)
My experience with desiring a home humbled me into having greater compassion for all of us who suffer the pain and disappointment that comes from unmet desires. The antidote to desire, then, is to shift our attention from the object(s) of desire to desire itself, and then to experience desire as God within. From that place, we can know that what is ours will come to us without asking.

Meditation Keys ~ Desire
Recall a time when you experienced intense desire for something or someone.
Allow yourself to feel this desire as fully as possible.
Now, take the object of desire away and let yourself feel the energy of desire itself.
Feel the sensation of desire fully within you. Having withdrawn your focus from without to within, feel the burning desire with your whole being.
Know that what you are feeling is in fact God's desire for you.
Use this as an opportunity to melt into the fire of God's desire for you.
Recognize that God knows all of your desires and relax into acceptance of whatever is being presented to you in this moment.

    * Desire is the source of all separation
    * Desire creates great anger when it is not fulfilled.
    * Desire is at the root of greed, kust, attachment, pride and even fear.
    * Desire is the emporer of the negative power as it controls us so completely.

(1) Vijnana bhaiava or Divine Consciousness, translated by Jaideva Singh. Delhi: Mtilal Banarsidass, 1979, Dharana #75.

Devrah Laval is the author of The Magic Doorway into the Divine (ISBN# 978-0-9784986-0-3) and the NEW Keys to the Doorway MYSTIC INSPIRATION CARDS. Please address any comments, purchases or questions to: devrahlaval@telus.net or visit http://www.themagicdoorway.com

Twenty-five years ago, Devrah Laval had a profound, enlightenment experience, and miraculous healing that changed the course of her life forever. Devrah was a busy fashion model; but courageously postponed her career when she was compelled to travel to India and train with many of the most revered teachers and spiritual masters as well as studies in New York. After extensive study, the true mystic inside Devrah was revealed. Today, Devrah is a gifted and vital teacher, who truly treads the mystic path. Her wisdom comes from direct experience.  An innate understanding revealed to her the fact that God exists everywhere and in everything. The precious gifts of purification and a profound ability to integrate higher truths have culminated into a deep wisdom that Devrah uses to illuminate the way for all of us. The Magic Doorway into the Divine is an expression of Devrah’s life long study and the realization of our essence as soul.

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Other articles by this author that you may wish to read:

The Magic Doorway ~ The Awakening - http://www.thehealingjournal.com/node/1176
INSPIRATIONS – Magic Doorways - MYSTIC LOVE - http://www.thehealingjournal.com/node/1106
Magic Doorways ~ DESIRE - http://www.thehealingjournal.com/node/1084
PROJECTION - a powerful tool - http://www.thehealingjournal.com/node/1055
INSPIRATIONS - POINT ONE OF SEPARATION - http://www.thehealingjournal.com/node/965
Magic Doorways - INSPIRATIONS - THE HIGHEST RELATIONSHIP - http://www.thehealingjournal.com/node/941
Magic Doorways ~ Inspirations - You Are What You Watch - http://www.thehealingjournal.com/node/896

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